I’ve seen this video called I’m Scared by Charlie McDonnell. Who is he? He is an English Vlogger (Video Blogger) which his Youtube videos have more than 250 million views in total on his channel. I found him via MeekaKitty and NANALEW.
I’ve watched some of Charlie’s videos which (besides his charming British accents) I like how enthusiastic he is while he’s talking about science. Although his Youtube channel has more than 1.7 million subscribers, he still got this feeling: scared of what people would think of him or like the things he will do. He may talk about other things that he has worried about. But I believe that some Bloggers or Vloggers would come up with this kind of fear, especially famous bloggers.
I could understand that feeling despite the fact that I’m just a normal blogger who has only 338 views (counting till this post, and NO! I haven’t checked the stat page all the time :P) In addition to this WordPress blog, I have another Thai blog on the well-known Thai webpage community. Other than that, I have my own website called ilookatthesky.com which all of the posts were written in Thai by my brother, my friend and I. In the beginning of our website, I wrote what I’d like to share to others. Normally, I liked to know how many visitors on our website for each day. Moreover, I was looking forward to seeing new comments replied to our posts. The more I expected, the more I tended to easily get disappointed. And I stopped posting for a while on my own website (from 3-4 times a month in first 3-4 years to vice versa in following years). My motivation to write has gradually decreased.
And I knew what was wrong with me. The way I had expected too much to see more visitors or more comments on my websites. The fear that what people might think of my writing style like it may be boring. And those ideas affected the original motive in creating the ilookatthesky.com website. At first, we wanted to share our love of music, books, films, and shows to others. More importantly, we hoped to translate the news of our beloved bands such as Radiohead, Sigur Ros, and etc to Thai language. But we just forgot that intention.
So when I started this WordPress blog, I realized that I must not act or think like the way I was in the past. I should know why I began this blog. I’ve promised myself to write this blog everyday no matter how lazy I am or nobody reads it. Of course, I am still human who could be frustrated about anything but I shouldn’t let it rules me.
Back to Charlie, I am happy that he was back to post another video after that one again. His love for science still puts the smiles on my face (and surely, because of his British accent too [=”=])