English is not my native language so I’m a bit nervous whenever my job requires me to speak English. Actually I don’t have any problem with speaking English when I’m in meetings or training or seminars as an attendee. However, I will get jittery when I have to lead meetings.
My projects are usually related to colleagues in different locations around the world so we certainly need to communicate in English for both native and non-native speakers. Whenever I am the one who lead a meeting, I will think of some things that tend to make me gain a little frustration for example:
- Pronunciation: will they understand me when I speak English with Thai accent? or am I able to get what they ask me or give comments if I’m not familiar with their accents?
- English grammars: Someone said that we aren’t English native speakers so we don’t have to worry about the right grammars that much when we speak English. Still, I want to communicate English correctly as much as I can so I always think of all of tenses, prepositions, word choices, determiners, and etc. while speaking English. From doing that, I’m sometimes confused and my talks might not naturally flow as I want it to be.
Anyway, I generally try not to show this uneasy feeling so whenever I’m going to lead a meeting; I will try to act like this.
But in fact, I feel like this in my mind.
And when meetings finish, I sometimes feel exhausted.
Despite facing nervousness, I still want to do that because it is the challenge that I’m willing to take on. As I always want to be in this kind of environment where I can practice and use English in communication especially speaking and writing.
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