We are not allowed to stand still here

You might not know Nelson S. Howe but some people here in Thailand know him from the book by Benz Thanachart; author of a book called ‘New York 1st time’.  We called Mr.Nelson as ‘Uncle Nelson’. He has a unique character and sometimes he can express our thought better than Thai citizens. Some of us cannot speak our mind since Thai Junta has ruled our country for almost 3 years now. How ridiculous is that when you’ve come to think about this circumstance.

Uncle Nelson recently posted this picture and captioned it with

I have to practice this before going to Thailand because they don’t allow people to stand in public there


Photo Credit

Yes, he has spoken for some of us who can’t even say a word. His post just reacted to the news regarding protesting against abducting 8 Thai citizens by a group of militants (and now they are called “Facebook 8“)

Resistant Citizen, one of the few organizations that has campaigned against the military regime, announced the protest on Facebook Wednesday afternoon, urging the public to gather en masse at 6pm at the Victory Monument.

“We will stand there [silently] because we do not agree with the military arresting the eight citizens,” the statement said, based on an earlier count of those detained.

Cut from NEWS

The protest has ended because protesters have been captured by police. It was absurd because protesters were just standing there but they were still caught. Fortunately,  they have been released later.

I’ve updated this blog because it’s too much to handle now.

I want to write down below message on my Facebook but I cannot do it. I don’t know I will be ok or not even I post it here. But I need to.

this is not normal; this is called injustice; and it’s too much to ignore; and some Thai people are blind with their bias if they can’t even see it; this is abnormal; i don’t know how can i tolerate in this situation; act normally despite the fact that this is absolutely shit; shit happens and i am the one who is living in it; unable to shout; to speak; or even whisper; in order to survive; that’s how they threaten us with fear; they seem to be successful; aren’t they?

25 DAYS | 25 SONGS – DAY 03: My Parents


My parents always teach me to believe in human rights, equality, and democracy especially my father. So when the military has seized the power from the election government in Thailand since 22 May 2014, it reminds me of the time when I was in high school. In May 1992, there was a bloody military crackdown in Bangkok. My father first wanted to go out to join the protest. However, my mom didn’t allow him to go. They had a huge argument, and my dad needed to follow my mom’s request.

Our family always believe that the rights to vote should go to all Thai citizens. It is against our common sense to support the coup d’etat now in Thailand. I’m glad that my parents have taught me to believe in something like that even though this notion makes me dissimilar from my peers who are middle-classed Thai citizen since some of them support this coup. My parents’ teaching have shaped me to be a person whose belief isn’t swayed by peer pressure in this situation.

Found this challenge on fishofgold.

Occupy your mind

On the 22nd May 2014, there was a coup d’etat in my small country. They have issued many announcement so far which mainly focus on forbidding everyone says their opinion against this coup. They prevent some journalists to report news. It is the 13th Coup in Thailand which I never ever feel good with this kind of act. However, how can I do anything to this situation as I am only a civilian in this tiny country where the world doesn’t have to care for us. Moreover, there are a number of people especially elites and middle-class bangkokians who agree with this act. I never understand their logics. How can people say no to the real democracy and say yes to the military act?!?  They can firmly hold to the notion of military against corruption of the elected government. Still, we can speak our mind to the elected government if they have done something fishy which we have proved to that before. BUT we can’t be sure whether we can speak anything to the people who rule us now with weapons and power.

‘Cause it’s the funniest feeling 
So let’s slip inside 
Out of this world 
Out of this life 
‘Cause this place called home 
Is no longer mine 
So now I need to occupy your mind 

I just want to occupy your mind 
(‘Cause it’s the funniest feeling) 
I just want to occupy your mind 
(So let’s slip inside) 
I just want to occupy your mind 
(Oh, it’s the funniest feeling) 
I just want to occupy your mind 
(To leave it all behind) 

Well there’s a crack in the ceiling 
And there’s a hole in the sky 
And there’s a government warning 
They don’t like our kind 
But now it’s three in the morning 
And I’m feeling just fine 
And I just want to occupy your mind

– Occupy your mind by Villagers –

On the 2nd day of the 13th Coup d’etat in Thailand.

Before blooming


I’m currently practising a manual mode (Mode M) on my new camera and I have fun doing it despite the fact that I need to snap many shots to get just one decent or acceptable image. Like this one that I photographed almost 30 photos and only one photo that I was satisfied with. But I know that this is a practice so we have to shoot a lot to reach the certain level that we can recall which set up we should use in various situations.

This bud of a rose is in a flowerpot next to our terrace in front of our home. I think it is a first one of roses to bloom after the winter season (which the winter in my country wasn’t that cold compared to other areas around the world).

While taking its photos, I realized that this rose will have a chance to bloom to a beautiful one. Nevertheless, a girl and a boy didn’t have opportunities to do that because their lives have taken away before passing the youth. Apart from that, there are other children who will never have any chance to grow up with their fathers or mothers because the death came to their families.

Why did I say that? The reason was that during the past week, there were 3 deaths in a clash between Thai police and the anti-goverment protesters. Last night (22-Feb-2014), there was a bomb and shooting near the demonstration stage in Trad province and caused 41 injures including the death of a 8 year old girl. This evening (23-Feb-2014) before writing this post, there was another bomb inside the protest area near the department store which caused 24 injures and 2 deaths; one of them was a 12 year old boy sister and brother whose ages were 6 and 5 years old.

Although I disagree with the protest because their request is to get less democracy. But I don’t want to see anyone dies. They are Thai people like me in spite of different political belief. I oppose violence towards everyone. However, we can’t know what’s going on now. Who has done this? And where will be the next target?

I never thought that the situation would come to this state where I’ve gradually started to fear for danger to my family and I as well as my friends or people I’ve known.

I understand that life has to go on but I want this post to remember that some lives never have a chance to go on.

The day

Today (2nd Feb 2014) is the day when Thailand has a national election. To be honest, I never thought that we could come to the election because there is a certain group of Thai people who has been trying to undermine the rights to vote of other Thai citizens.

Let me recap something. On 26th Jan 2014, there were an early election happening around the country. However, some polling stations couldn’t open and some voters couldn’t enter the stations because the anti-government protesters blocked the places. (News)

To add the heat, the gun battle occurred in Bangkok (our capital city) yesterday (1st Feb 2014) between two groups of different political belief. (News)

Apart from the critical tension, my family and I peacefully went to vote at the polling station in our neighbourhood this morning (2nd Feb 2014). After that, I came home and needed to work from home all day because I have a deadline to meet for my project at work. I didn’t follow any news about the election. But I knew that there are some disrupted polling stations, and people who wanted to vote couldn’t use their rights. (News)

I still keep saying that I don’t know how or when the political turmoil will end even though we’ve already had the national election. I’ve only known that I want to use my right to vote for the government. I don’t want any group to choose the government for us. But if the anti-protesters win this situation, the one person = one vote will be discontinued as they claimed that they would lead the new politics in Thailand. They proposed to erect the People’s council which they would choose good people to rule the government and let Thai citizens to vote for some members of the House of Representative.

Democracy isn’t the perfect government system but I believe that it could give the basic rights for human beings in the political aspect. Thailand has a long history for our cry-for-democracy. We have lost their lives along the line. And I will never forget.
Photo 2-2-2557 BE, 19 33 37

Black May 1992

What’s going on?

Today (26 Jan 2014), Thailand had the early election. However, the anti-government protesters tried to sabotage the early election by blocking polling stations which they could succeed in some stations in Bangkok (a capital city) and the southern part of Thailand. But the advanced voting could finish without any problems in other parts (Northern, Northeastern, Central, Eastern, and Western).

Voting was either blocked completely or halted at 49 out of 50 polling stations in Bangkok. Early voting was also disrupted in 10 of Thailand’s 76 provinces, reports said.


There were Thai citizens who wanted to cast their vote in this early election but they couldn’t go inside the stations. And no one could do anything about that even the police or government. There were some videos or photos that showed people who would like to enter the polling station by passing those protesters. I saw news, photos, or videos. I can’t believe that they did try to stop other Thai citizen from voting which is the basic rights for us in the country ruled by democracy.

I don’t know what would happen to me and my family when we go to the national election next Sunday (2 February 201). Or I’m not even sure whether we still have the election or not.


Emotional Correctness

I liked this talk because I think it can be adapted to ease the current political crisis in my country. Even though, it seems to be impossible for everyone here to step back and look for common ground. It seems that everyone here has their own opinion and just wants to speak without really paying attention for what others are trying to say. Everyone wants to show their political correctness and point out to the opposition that they are wrong. So everyone tends to be in the same group of people and assume that other people think the same or another group is wrong.




I think I’m not safe here

There is an ongoing political unrest here in my country which protesters gathering in my city (Bangkok, Thailand). The protesters mainly consist of people from middle class and elites. They believe that the elected government will destroy our country. They want to change the form of government by erecting the council of people instead of election. They claim that there are people who don’t understand democracy especially in rural or low education. Some of them think that if they let our country have the normal election, their preferable party will not be chosen to be government. The political party that they think as the representative of goodness and intelligence. In the easier conclusion, they don’t think our country is ready for one man, one vote.

Most of my peers attend this protest or support it. However, I can’t accept the basic idea of their belief that denies our human rights. Anyway, my peers like to share their thoughts or photos on Facebook when they joined or satisfied with the protest. It seems fashionable to go to the protest, take photos and share them on Facebook. I need to endure their actions. The sad thing is that I cannot share my thoughts or show my own disagreement.

To be honest, I couldn’t help myself and I posted many things on my Facebook wall showing my idea of equal rights in election system. I didn’t attack anyone. However, my true friend warned me that I shouldn’t show disagreement because it’s too dangerous here. I certainly knew what my friend meant because I used to get the discrimination when I was in a place where I was the only one who thought differently. They didn’t hurt me physically but they would isolate me as much as they could. As a result, I tend to be careful as high as I can when I move to a new function.

My current society changes to be a society where you shouldn’t say anything if you think/believe dissimilarly. Actually, you might be able to speak freely but you need to wait for some consequences. Even they act like they are ok with your thoughts, but you cannot be sure of anything.

Eventually, I set all my Facebook posts (related to the current political situation) to show to me only after the warning from my friend. As I don’t know whom I should be careful of. I don’t know who I can really trust. I can feel that the protesters truly believe what they’ve done, they do for the country. Some of them think of people who disagree with them as stupid and bad citizens. They think of us as the enemies. If they can wipe us out of the country, the country will be better. I can say that I fear of what they think. Because you never know when or what they will do next to get rid of us.

I’m so happy.

I’m living here.

Where everyone must think the same or die.

Even posting here on my own blog, I fear that some of them might read this and know who I am.

Your silence is loud enough

You silence is loud enough.
My mind hears that.

Your silence speaks clearly.
I think I get it.

Your silence says it all.
I realize I need to be stronger.

It’s not that easy for me to hold my belief under pressure among my peers. In the political sense, some of my peers seem to favor an idea that I think it shows discrimination while others choose to ignore it. The idea that seems to look down people in rural areas or people who don’t get higher education. The idea that seems to approve “one man not equal one vote” in the election system.

I can understand and accept different political belief, but I just can’t agree with any thought that shows prejudice. My dad told me that our human rights would be violated if some particular groups could get more votes than other groups because of their education background or home areas or some reasons. He told me that everyone is born equally. But our life alter our social status after that. If you deny their rights to voice, you lessen their humanity.

Before this specific offer related to voting, many of friends joined the anti-amnesty bill campaign. I could see a lot of shared information on my Facebook wall. Finally, Thai government needed to stop that bill because of strong opposition from public. But when the idea showing discrimination has been raised by a certain group of protesters. I could see one or two of my friends saying something about this on Facebook wall. But people, who usually talk about political aspect, seem to be unusually quiet. I partially believe that some of them might want to support this certain idea but they don’t want to look bad because this particular idea is against common sense.

The more they don’t post about this, the more I begin to realize what they might think. Their silent posts seem to say it all. It makes me feel lonelier. However, I need to be strong and stand for what I think. It’s not that easy but I need to do it and I hope that I just misunderstood their silence.

All of your smiling faces

To somebody who are stealing our basic rights,

Because of your ignorance, I will never be with you.
Because of your high-and-mighty attitudes, I will never be with you.
Because of your selfishness, I will never be with you.
And definitely, because of your smiling faces, I will never ever be with you.